I often describe my own life as a rollercoaster of disappointments. Yet, these experiences have kept me grounded, in faith, in wisdom and in hope. My disappointments has activated me to find the ‘Secret place of the Highest God’ (Ps 91).

As I write this journal to encourage you, it comes to mind that there is always a source from which disappointments flow. Sometimes they arise from lessons not fully learned; they can result because of our connection to the wrong type of friends; there are times we are given poor advice; many disappointments stem out of strained/toxic relationships with spouses, partners, children, relatives, and even parents.

As I reflect on where my own route of disappointment began, I can’t ignore the shadow of the ‘Windrush Generation’ and the way that my parents story has shaped my own life. My parents, like so many who came from the Caribbean, arrived with so much hope and expectation. They believed that they were stepping into a land of opportunity. They came with dreams of building a better life. They came with the intention of faithfully serving the ‘Mother Land’ and contributing to a nation that invited them in. However, instead of ‘open doors’, our parents encountered ‘closed hearts’.

This promise of acceptance was met with prejudice. The hope of opportunity was often replaced by rejection and barriers. They faced discrimination in housing, jobs, and daily life. Disappointments cut deep into their sense of worth, belonging, and identity. These wounds shaped how they lived, existed, survived, succeeded, and how they raised their children.

I now see that I inherited not only the fruits of their sacrifices, but also the weight of their disappointments. Their struggle silently shaped who I am, just like David’s wounds shaped his Psalms. And yet, like David, I also see how God has used these generational pains to anchor me deeper in Him. The Windrush story is a reminder that disappointment can cross generations. But in Christ, ‘generational disappointment’ does not have to define us, and it does not have the final say. God’s promised ‘Redemption Story’ is much stronger than the pain of anybody’s history. God’s Salvation story has the power to reach into our history, redefine our story, transforming it into a legacy. Now, that is what we call a testimony.

PROPHETIC PRAYER
– Lord, I bring before You every disappointment I have carried: Spoken and unspoken. Heal the inner wounds of rejection, abandonment, failure, and fear in my heart. (Ps 34:18)
– Father, open my eyes to see the root cause of every disappointment in my life.
– Reveal where negative patterns, wrong relationships, or past errors have fed these inner wounds, creating cycles of defeat. (Psalms 139:23-24)
– In the Name of Jesus, I renounce every generational pattern of disappointment, rejection, and failure. By the power of the cross, I declare freedom from every inherited cycle. (Gal. 3:13-14)